I am so sorry for the loss of your beloved Cynthia. This is never easy to face, in fact, death can be viewed as an enemy. That's how our Creator Jehovah views it, as according to 1 Cor. 15:26, which says: "And the last enemy, death, is to be brought to nothing." May you find comfort in knowing this, and that God has a longing to conquer that enemy, to undo death, by means of the resurrection. Please visit jw.org for more comforting information.