I am so sorry you are enduring this pain! We can find so much comfort in the Bible. We read at 2Corinthians 1:3,4 that God is the Father of tende mercies, and the God of all comfort who comforts us in all our tribulation. We can call on him and he hears us! He promises to remove the pain you now feel. Revelation 21:3,4 says, "He will wipe out every tear from our eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore." I truly hope this helps you! You can access a brochure that has helped millions to cope with this difficult time by going to www.jw.org and looking for When Someone You Love Dies. It is completely free of charge. With Deepest Sympathy, Christy