dear most beautiful mommy... i love you so much and i miss you a lot. in rough times i think of you, and in good times i think of you. i always ask myself "why did God have to do this to me? why does He have to do this to my mommy? she is so nice and we all need her!" i don't know why you had to have this sickness because you are the most amazing and most wonderful person ever! you are the one who gave me life to begin with! but now the time has come... and you left us... and i now have to be your "backbone" as you told me when you texted me in the hospital. i am so happy that God has given you time with me, and me time with you. every night i look at your beautiful picture and i cry. and every time i see something of yours, i cry. every time i think of the good old days and times that we have had together, i cry... i miss you so much mommy, and i love you so much. i hope that you may come to me again so that i may see your beautiful face once more. but i know that you are enjoying your time with God in Heaven. you were my life supporter, and i do not know if i will last long without you. i love you so much mommy, and i want to see your beautiful face again. -from your eldest daughter Helen, to you, my most beloved and missed mommy, my wonderful Abeer.