I am so sorry for your families loss. Death is so painful but please don't forget that you all have God to go to for comfort (2 Cor. 1:4). He is the only way that you will be strengthened to endure your loss right now. He also promises you a future when you can see your loved one again and when death will be a thing of the passs (Acts 24:15; Rev. 21:3,4). So you can find that comfort in trusting in that promise from God. My condolences goes to you family right now.