Hello, I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your loved one. Times like this make it easy to blame God. But James 1:13 says God cannot be tried nor does he try anyone with evil things. But Isaiah 25:8 and Revelation 21:4 tell us what he will do in the for us In the near future. This is a promise we can look to with confidence. Continue to ask him for help until that time comes.